Social Climber..

I will have to admit that at some point of my life I have been one.. Or maybe I still am a social climber.. I have realized that in a world that we call "survival of the fittest", you should know how to choose the people that will help you get on in this jungle-esque life.
Not that I tried to spend extravagantly, or totally try to pretend I am rich.. what I mean is, I tried to 'tweak' some of what I am to be able to adapt to people around me..

It can be hard, to be honest, and at the end of the day I realize.. what do I get from this? I lose myself and I can't go back to what I used to be..

And it gets even harder, and more depressing, when you look at yourself and you don't realize who you're looking at in the mirror..

It's hard.. But it's harder when you feel alone not being able to fit in anyone's world..

Music..

Music..

Music has played a big part in my everyday life.. In almost every waking hour I can't survive without hearing music.. 

When I wake up, I go straight to the shower and take a bath while playing my favorite music.. Upon leaving home I pop my earphones and listen to the radio.. When I'm reading I can't stand silence, so I turn the music on..

It also affects my mood.. I listen to upbeat songs in the morning to jumpstart my day.. Old love songs to relax.. SUUUUUPER oldies or classicals when I need to sleep.. When I feel sad regarding matters of the heart I listen to emo songs..

At work when I get bored I hum random tunes..

When I drink with friends we sing crazy songs and laugh at each other for it..
When I get bored I listen to music..

If music were a real person.. He would have been my bestfriend..

As ABBA's song goes..

Thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing
Thanks for all the joy they're bringing
Who can live without it, I ask in all honesty
What would life be?
Without a song or a dance what are we?
So I say thank you for the music
For giving it to me..

Really Now?!

Whaddya think?

I've been to relationships here and there.. But I never kept this list the whole time.. Sometimes when I am in deep shit that's when online posts like this would appear.. That's when I remember and realize I had forgotten how relationships work..

It's hard to think of these things.. Let alone practice it.. Especially when you are at a moment when your judgment is clouded with anger, mistrust, etc. And when shit happens, it happens at a moment you wouldn't really anticipate.. And.. Like a broken mirror, crumpled paper, <insert any item than gets broken but can still be fixed>, you can fix it, but it will never be the same.. It's up to you if you will still use it, or decide to create a better one..

I can give good advice, but when I am caught in a situation.. Hell I'm the dumbest and most vulnerable person in love that you'll meet.. Pffttt... I'd definitely need friends to keep me sane..

I've never been lucky when it comes to relationships.. Never been able to handle one properly.. I dunno.. I guess I'm too preoccupied with things.. That I never learned how this should go.. When they say everyone becomes the dumbest person alive when it comes to love, I'd have a hard time believing it.. I have friends that have stayed together since the beginning of time.. And I wonder how they make it work..

How do they make it work? Tell me..

Occurences..

Hello..

It's been a very, very, VERY long time since I last posted here.. A lot had happened.. A lot has changed..


I left the company I was working with when I started this blog.. You guys know that I live in a rural place (LOL) and never did I anticipated the risks when leaving home at so late a time.. I almost got robbed, mugged, harassed.. Name it.. I ALMOST went through it..


So..


I transferred to a company that offers dayshift schedules.. Not so fun of a pay but hey.. At least I'm still alive.. I don't have to worry getting to work alive.. I feel the sun on my skin.. I smell the same with the people I get to ride with (before I used to smell fresh.. and the other people riding aren't.. aah the joys of nightshift!)


I'm having fun working.. Workload's very light.. But I'm afraid it gets a bit boring.. We don't get much calls.. But I'm aiming for something bigger.. I promise.. And this time I will make it happen..